Monday, April 18, 2005

Again.

I'm miserable. So miserable and lonely. AGAIN. Is it my fault if I'm so sensitive? Is it my fault if I get hurt? I mean for god's sake, I've always been careful with the things I say because I care about how other people would feel. I don't want to hurt them, or offend them. How come when it comes to me people are so harsh? They're so mean. And I can't even say harsh stuff back at them because as I've said, I don't want to offend others. I just cry. The only thing I hope they'd know is that if they don't have anything good to say, then it's best that they just keep their mouths shut, and not say anything at all.

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!

I just feel so bad about myself. And like that entry a week ago.
I still need someone to comfort me, even a hug would do.

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In homeroom class, we were told about what hugs could do to people... That gesture can cheer up anyone, and hugging someone would make him or her feel better, feel cared for and loved.

HONESTLY, no one's ever hugged me in years. Only Krinkle, a classmate. (And I say thank you so much for that).

Ha. Surprising, isn't it? So basically, my life's filled with misery, rejection and the feeling of being unloved. Sometimes I forget about it all. Because sometimes, I can pretend to be happy. But like what's written in both sentences, SOMETIMES. And most of the time, I just feel rejected. Happy, isn't it?

Mish wrote at 7:47 PM