Saturday, June 04, 2005

No, She Doesn't Want To

Okay. Classes start on June 8 for us. And I don't want to go back to school. EVER.

I found out what my room number is today, and I'm in room 1. And I won't lie. I checked the whole list of students in the room and jeez. I don't like the class at all... The people there are the ones I never got along with... Fine. They were the people who bullied me in Gradeschool, the people who are just plain... Evil.

I just want to cry. Oh. Yes. I've been crying na nga pala for the past hours.

I went online at YM and Anne told me about this rumor that Ken got involved in a plane accident... Nothing's been confirmed yet, and there aren't any articles on it over the net.

Some fans say they saw it on the news... No confirmations... But they said it was on TV. I'm worried. And today is Yang Cheng Lin's birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RAINIE!!! I LOVE YOUUU!

I just hope that it remains a rumor, that thing. I don't know what I'll do if something awful happens to Xiao Tian!!!

Hay.

I miss my bestfriend. I miss Jaqui sooo much!!! I wish they'd have a phone line soon... I miss talking to her!!!

And there is something else bothering me. I know I usually rant about my family... About being unloved and stuff... And well, all of those are true... And it sucks. And now I feel that there are so many changes happening... And the way we treat each other are starting to change as well, change in a negative way...

My parents, I feel are starting to be distant... They don't talk anymore like they used to... If they do talk to each other, they are overly polite and hey, they sound so fake. I've seen them fight... And make up after a couple of days... But this is different... It's been what? Weeks... I'm worried, really worried...

UGH. I have so many problems. I don't know which one to take care of first... F4 and Jay, Rainie and the rest... And my friends. They keep me going. They make me smile. I don't know what would happen to me if I stop loving them... I would just... be miserable. And then die.

**Ate Angel, I know... I'm really sorry. For the 3rd time I wasn't able to come. I really wanted to, but I wasn't allowed. Next time, I'll try harder. I love you!!! I'm sorry again!

Mish wrote at 8:54 PM